"Can you go take your dinner and cry upstairs?" That’s the last thing my mom’s said to me this evening, probably for the rest of the day.
I hope this won’t be a tl;dr post, because someone in this world has to listen to me, right? If not, I’m still not embarrassed to lay this stuff out. It is what it is and I’m tired of bottling a lot of important things up, even if I just lay it all out in a post few will notice.
I’m not depressed or anything - yet - but…You ever have those days where, no offense to whatever incredible, close friends you have now, you miss the ones you felt you could talk to absolutely anything about? No matter how personal, just someone there to support you and listen and even relate, not just hug you and say it’ll all work itself out?
I used to have a friend like that but things ended on bad terms, but I miss that kind of relationship we had while it lasted. Hell, I don’t think I’d have been able to get through most of high school if I didn’t have her to talk to about all the drama and work solutions out with. We both had a lot on our plates.
Because right now my dad’s out of state and he won’t respond to my emails. My mom is ill and bitter and either tunes me out or yells at me about not doing anything right when I try to tell her about a situation I’m dealing with or ask her for help. My sister and I haven’t been close since I was a kid.
I have good friends - it’s just that they’re ones I’d not want to risk dumping everything little thing on. No matter how many times they confirm they care and will keep listening, you tell people too many things about your personal life, and you will lose these people. Unless they’re your closest friends or they’re don’t quite understand the severity of what they’re hearing, they’ll stop listening to you.